I do not like blogging! I think I’ve said this before! Over the last 2 months, I have read copious really interesting, really well written, thoughtful, inspired blog posts by the other members of the group, plus heaps of other readings. You’d think that would cause me to jump on the bandwagon and join in. It did and it didn’t. My fear of getting things wrong and my perfectionism won out. I didn’t realise how much of a perfectionist I was until this course. I have sat down and gone through my PKM routine daily, set up my blog page, put a title, planned an outline and then completely scrapped the whole lot for fear I had not read something properly or not completely understood the concept I was about to write about.
This is not a new phenomenon. Yurkiw (2006) explores how blogging challenges preservice teachers to become risk takers and to have an attitude to “accept and channel student failure to a greater extent than is already done”. I guess that sums it up for you. I don’t like taking risks. Yet I know from the literature, how important risk is and overcoming fear of failure. I just don’t want to do it in public.
Yurkiw (2006) won me though, in this paragraph:
The belief is that teaching professionals who have a solid understanding of how pedagogical theory translates into practice, and who are able to reflect on their experiences in order to determine how to consistently improve their practice, will be better able to bring out the same qualities in their students”.
I feel like I have a decent understanding of pedagogy, but I’m only just scratching the surface when it comes to reflexivity. I really want to be able to do this, and I feel like this experience will allow me to sympathise with my students in the classroom as we work together.